other than that it's been a pretty uneventful week. (wait a minnut, other than what? i haven't said anything!!) currently i'm reading sabriel again, but i got to a slow part and stopped reading an hour or so ago. drove down to crossroads and picked me up some broccoli beef at imperial palace express, which was yummy. i also went to the free preview of homebody/kabul just down the sidewalk in the fine arts building with jessie yesterday evening. it was pretty good, but the plot was rather intricate, and i don't feel like retelling it right now. and if you ask me later, i probably won't feel like retelling it then either. just pay the $5 and go see it yourself.
unfortunately, there is a severe shortage of m&m's in my immediate vicinity. the closest source of those candy-coated chocolate yummies is in one of the vending machines, probably in the durham science center, if they have a candy machine there. i know there's a pop machine anyway; i see it through the window when i walk by there every day. if not there, then the engineering building. but candy costs 75 cents, which is highway robbery, i tell you. i'm not sure if it's any cheaper at the convenience store in the student center. and besides, they're probably all closed at this hour anyway. it's sad.
that and i just got irritated so easy. i felt like punching a hole in the wall or punching a hole through my computer screen or ripping my bedsheets apart or completely trashing everything in my room, but i couldn't! because you just can't do stuff like that! so being unable to do that made it ten times worse. i was trying to write a summary and do some review sheets for my evening english class, but i just couldn't concentrate, and trying to do so got me even more pissed off. and 5:30 came strangely fast, which stressed me out even more. i just completely lost it. finally i calmed myself down enough to sit and finish the summary, which i did a pretty shitty job on, i believe, but then my headache was back (and yes, i did take some aspirin), so i skipped class and took a nap, which made me feel terrible. 
calling my mother crossed my mind, but despite how many places you hear that mother will make it all better, calling my mom to tell her i couldn't write a summary and was considering (and did) skipping class would only make things ten times worse. she would be furious, which is why she isn't going to find out. so now i have to figure out what to say to the teacher when i email her and ask to scheduele a conference so i can make up what i missed. and i have three commentaries i have to write for tomorrow morning. and my headache is back (it went away temporarily after my nap, and yes, i did take more aspirin). i just don't know what to do...
tennis.... i don't even know how to play tennis. badmitton.... i think you're just coming up with random sports at this point, chris. oh, and fraternities are guys' organizations. girls have sororities, and i would shoot myself before i joined one. i was talking to the receptionist at my psychiatrist's office about what i was doing this fall, and she said she had gone to uno, and added that she rushed (joined a sorority), but ended up not enjoying it. she said if you don't like to party (whether it be the legal or illegal kind, i believe) then you won't find anything you'd enjoy in a sorority. i'm just not a people person, i know i'd hate it. judo may be a good choice, but i need saturdays so i can work. i can't work any other days of the week, just fridays saturdays and sundays. wednesdays too, but that's not the point. plus i really need to save my money for food and other living expenses. i'm just lucky i didn't go shopping much this summer. yea, sure, i have ended up going shopping lately as something to do, but clothes and manga are just higher priorities for me than judo. i can't help it, i'm just that kinda person. and yes, it really is that mundane here. maybe not for everyone, but it sure as hell is for me.
| The Classic Lover 27% partner focus, 28% aggressiveness, 25% adventurousness |
| Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that: You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, ane you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing. This places you in the Lover Style of: The Classic Lover. The Classic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is the closest it comes to the classic images of the princess in the tower, or the romantic and chivalrous knight, or the hero/heroine from a Disney film. The Classic Lover is a treasure to find, though it can be difficult to do so because they sometimes tend to be shy and/or difficult to successfully court. Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Romantic Lover (most of all) or the Devoted Lover, or the Liberated Lover. Congratulations! If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following: Nerds, Geeks & Dorks Professional Wrestling Buffy the Vampire Slayer America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST |
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| Pure Nerd 65 % Nerd, 26% Geek, 30% Dork |
| For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Nerd, earning you the title of: Pure Nerd. The times, they are a-changing. It used to be that being exceptionally smart led to being unpopular, which would ultimately lead to picking up all of the traits and tendences associated with the "dork." No-longer. Being smart isn't as socially crippling as it once was, and even more so as you get older: eventually being a Pure Nerd will likely be replaced with the following label: Purely Successful. Congratulations! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following: Buffy the Vampire Slayer Professional Wrestling Love & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST |
1. we have the concept of god, and in that sense god exists "in the understanding."
2. the concept of "god" is the concept of the greatest conceivable being.
3. real existance is greater than mere existance in the understanding.
4. therefore, god must exist in reality, not just in the understanding.
ok, now what i think is that this anslem guy is just spouting a bunch of rubbish. why? because by saying that god is greater than anything we can ever think of, aren't we thinking that god is greater than anything we can ever think of? so does that mean that god is greater than the idea that god is greater than anything we can ever think of? 
and hey! wouldja look at that, we just thought of god being greater than the idea of god being greater than anything we can ever think of! so does that mean that god is greater than the idea that god is greater than the idea that god is greater than anything we can ever think of? this process of thought could go on and on infinitely, so how does this prove that god exists? 
doesn't this just prove that the human mind is infinite in itself? so how can god be greater than something infinate; what is greater than infinity? i'm not trying to prove that god doesn't exist, i'm just trying to prove that anslem's argument can't prove shit. when i voiced this opinion in class i heard somebody behind me say "woah!" which was pretty funny, but the teacher misunderstood me and thought i was saying something along the lines that the human mind is finite ane cannot conceive the idea of god, which is an argument that some people have made before. 
no, quite the opposite, after all, we just conceived that god could be greater than what the human mind can comprehend, so how is it we cannot conceive the idea of god?
you can't define perfect, there's no such thing (universally there isn't anyway). going back to where i stated that we're assuming that we exist; do we really exist at all? how can we define what is in existance and what isn't? where does fantasy end and reality begin? what if we're just somebody's idea or dream? for example, i'm writing a story. who's to say that the characters in my story aren't real? what if they think they're real, just as we think we're real. and for that matter, are we real? 
in my story people can do magic, but in our reality people cannot do magic. so what if we're in a story that somebody wrote in a reality where people can't walk? does that make our ability to walk real? does that make my character's ability to do magic real? if something doesn't exist in the creator's world, can it truly exist in the world of their creation? strange, no?
in which we will be critiquing each other's work and stuff, so the teacher had us share our "why do i write" explanations with each other, and in my explanation i told them about how i used to make up stories for my dolls and that one time some of the dolls got caught smoking in the girl's bathroom. this made them all laugh. ^^ then we were supposed to introduce our group to the rest of the class, each of us had to say something about our group. one girl introduced us individually and said that our group's name (we had to choose names) was on hiatus (literally, but it ended up being our actual group name because of it). 
then i said that all of our interest in writing stemmed from an early interest in reading. i can't remember what the other girl said, but the only guy in our group said that one of us used to make up stories for their dolls, and the first girl, sarah added that one time the dolls got caught smoking in the girls bathroom. i was cracking up as they both said this. it was funny, especially the look on the teacher's face. i made up strange things as a child. i was probably around 10 when i made up the said story, but when i was in pre-school i wrote a book in which our dog ran away and my dad spilled his beer 
(he was drinking the beer as he was walking the dog). i was 3-years-old at the time, and the teacher even drew a lil' caldecott medal on my book cover (which was made of wallpaper from one of those sample wallpaper books).
