yes, i'm being morbid again.

i just finished watching the day after tomorrow again (man, i just love that movie!) it got me thinking: it's really funny how the best horror movies aren't even classified as "horror" at all! anymore, "scary" movies are just dumb (well, most of them, thirteen ghosts was pretty damn good) and predictable. on the other hand, you have action movies like the day after tomorrow and armageddon and, oh what was that one called?, deep impact, i think (actually i'm not even sure if i've seen the whole thing... but all those movies where they simulate the end of the world as we know it. they're horrifying! (hmm, to let you know just how that last sentence should be read, i should tell you i was smiling as i wrote it.) every time i watch the day after tomorrow i imagine what it would be like if that actually happened. we'd be screwed, that's what. pay close attention to the line professor hall draws on the U.S. map -- nebraska is oh, so most definately and unquestionably on the north side of that line. the north half of kansas is too, for that matter. of course, we wouldn't have to worry about all our belongings to freeze instantaneously like all the stuff they had with them in new york (there's only one eye of a storm and there's only one storm over north america, it can't be in new york and nebraska both). however, everything we have would probably receive severe water damage (it'd be covered in snow and when we take it somewhere else to warm up the snow would melt all over it getting it soaked. my books would be ruined! *sob*) all i've got to say, though, is that i sure as hell hope cheney is smarter than that jackass of a vice-president in the movie.

what would you do if you knew the world was going to practically end tomorrow and there was the possibility that you may never see your friends and family again? is there something you'd want to tell someone? would you want to do something in particular? who would you want to be with you during such a storm? which of your friends and/or family members do you think would be most useful in a life or death situation like that? when you see that sort of thing in movies the general stereotype is that the shy, underdog-type guy confesses his love to that special girl. do you think you or somebody you know would do something like that? it really makes you wonder. for that matter, if you could only choose a certain number of people to save, who would you pick? (like in deep impact where there was a shelter underground that could save people, but only a limited number.)

another thing i was thinking about today was useless trivia. just how much do you know about your closest friends and family? sure, you know how they act and stuff, but do you know their favorite color? do they have only one favorite color? or do they have a favorite color, then a different favorite color when it comes to clothing? what's their favorite song? band? flower? scent? food? tv show? movie? activity? just how much do you know about a person? probably not as much as you think? even the most talkative person could be witholding a completely different side of theirself. this summer several of my friends (you know who you are) were over at my uncle's for the fourth of july. towards the end of the day when my aunt and uncle (um, one of them) were getting ready to go home and take my grandpa home, they wheeled him past where we were all standing around doing nothing in particular, and my grandpa said "bye, annie-bannanie!" which surprised joe (i think it was joe) and possibly other people but they didn't say anything. is it really so surprising to hear my grandpa call me "annie-bannanie"? (don't any of you dare get any ideas -- nobody calls me that but him. if you try addressing me as such i'll sock you one!) there's another friend of my mom's (whose name is also ann) that calls me annie-fandango (same goes for that nickname people). i guess i just don't seem like the kind of person who'd tolerate being called silly nicknames like that. (well, come to think of it, i'm not. like i said, i'd slug anybody else who'd try calling me that. i can just see it: some smartass coming up and calling me annie-bannanie, thinking they're being all cute and funny. it sickens me.) anyway, it reminds me of the first day of gym class second semester freshman year. i was in the same class as cameron, rob, and ben. so anyway, ms. nano was taking roll call and as amost every teacher asks me when they first meant me, she asked "is it anne or annie?" and my standard reply is "either". but then the trio mentioned previously starts going into a fake cough saying "anne" in the middle of it. why they hell did they care? it still baffles me.

when i was down at my family's last week having dinner (mmm, chinese) somehow we got into a conversation about dating. my mom said that you always hear about this girl that reese likes or this girl that nate likes (or this girl that any number of matt's other close friends like), but you never hear about this girl matt likes. why is that? well, matt enlightened us on that one, and i totally know where he's coming from. he said that having a girlfriend was too much hassle -- she'll want to spend all this time with you and you'll have to spend all this money to pay for dinner and movies and stuff, etc. etc. seriously, it's the same with boyfriends (minus the paying for shit, but i'l get to the equivalent of that in a minute). they'll always wabt to spend time with you and they'll always want to be touching you in some way (be it perverted or not) or they'll want to make-out alot and they'll insist on paying for everything. it drives me crazy!!!!!! i know what you're thinking; why the hell wouldn't this crazy chic want things paid for her? well i'll tell you why. it always sends me on a guilt trip. i can pay for things myself too, i do have a job. it's just not very fair to have somebody else pay for my stuff. it makes me feel terrible. it may have some deep-seated connection with my need for independance (unconsciously), but whatever. and the touching and making-out part. *sigh* there are just times when i don't want to be touched by anyone. period. i'm not always in the mood for making-out. period. one time i was standing around with my friends (back in high school) and one guy was innocently rubbing his girlfriend's shoulders. nothing sick, nothing inappropriate, but imagining myself in that situation made me slightly ill. i'm not a touchy-feely person (which should be totally obvious by now). man, i think i just have issues or something. heheh, another thing i brought up in that conversation is that i don't give out points for persistence (you guys remember tim the freezer guy from my work.... yeah). then my mom replies "you don't give out points for anything!" which made me laugh. it's so true. it's also exasperating when other girls tell me i should get out there and try dating people. apparently, they just don't get it. i can't just decide one day "okay, i want to be dating someone!" who the hell would i date? and before any smartass decides to answer that i'd like to state that there isn't anybody around that i want to date. not only would it be stupid for me to get into a relationship with someone i have no feelings for, there's also the guy's feelings to take into account. that would just be cruel. i don't lead people on (despite what some of you may think! just because i can easliy talk with guys and am not a total bitch to the world doesn't mean i like somebody. i just wish people would understand that...) and i don't intend to ever do such a insensitive act. and don't you people think i'm going soft or anything! being that mean just isn't cool.

and i don't want anything at all!!!