life is so sad

life is so sad, be it real or fiction. i wonder what people feel before they die, when they've gone and lived their lives without finding someone to spend it with? are they lonely? and what about people who have? are they content? or do they die full of regret for leaving someone behind? for the most part i live my life on a day to day emotional basis. i don't like to think about such things in the long run, it's just too depressing. so i'll concentrate on the next update of my favorite update, or the long-awaited release of the next book in a favorite series. for a birthday, for a tv special, anything new that will entertain me. sometimes everything seems like it's just a distraction from the inevitable sadness that accompanies all life. sorrow always feels so much more permanent and lasting than happiness, which seems so fleeting from a low perspective.

i need to stop listening to all this sad music... but it's just so pretty...